Now this is not a post where I’m forcing religion on you. This is just my beliefs and something I feel that has been laid on my heart this evening and wanted to share.
So, a quick run down of the story of “Jonah from the Bible” if you’re not familiar with it.
God had a calling on Jonah’s life. Jonah was to tell the people of a city called Ninevah to repent from their wickedness and turn back to God or they and their city would be destroyed. Jonah, DID NOT want to do this. So, Jonah ran from God’s Calling. Jonah tried to run/hide from God and got on a ship and headed for a city the opposite direction of Ninevah. While at sea God sent a terrible storm that endangered the ship to the point of sinking. The crew asked Jonah to pray to his God for the storm to stop. Jonah exclaimed to the men, God sent this storm because I haven’t obeyed Him. Jonah told the men to throw him overboard and the storm and their suffering would cease. The crew did not want to do this, but for fear of their lives they did as Jonah said. Immediately, the storm stopped. While Jonah was adrift in the sea, God sent a GREAT FISH to him and it swallowed him whole. For 3 days and 3 Nights, Jonah was in the depths of this great fish’s belly. Jonah prayed to God and Repented. Jonah said, God I will obey you and go to Ninevah. The great fish then literally threw up Jonah on the Shores of Ninevah. Jonah went to the people of Ninevah and told them to repent and turn their lives back to God or He would Destroy them along with the city. The people of Ninevah did as Jonah exclaimed and they and their city were spared. So now I want to break this story down as I feel it pertains to my life now.
- Jonah knew the calling that God had on his life. a) I know the calling that God has on my life.
- Jonah ran from that calling. a) I’ve ran from my calling
- God sent storms to Jonah’s Life to show him that he could not outrun or hide from Him. a) God has sent storms to my life, (I feel my Traumatic Brain Injury), to show me I’m not going to outrun the calling He has on my life.
- God sent the GREAT FISH to swallow Jonah. During this time he was able to reflect, to be alone with his thoughts. His prayers, repentance and acceptance to God’s calling on his life freed him from the fish. a) This Traumatic Brain Injury is my Great Fish that has “swallowed” me. It’s allowed me to reflect on my life. To be alone with my thoughts. To have my Prayers and Repentance heard. Most importantly the acceptance of God’s calling on my life.
However, I still feel I am trapped in the belly of the great fish. I believe this is my healing and recovery process and to teach me patience. When I am ready and to my fullest capabilities in life, I believe I will then be freed from the great fish to pursue and proceed with the calling on my life.
I’ve had some friends ask me, “Do you think God is punishing you for running from His calling on your Life?” I’ve told them no and referred to, John 9:1-5, As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. 2 His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”3 “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. 4 As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. 5 While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.” I believe this has happened to me, “so that the works of God might be displayed in me.” To build my Testimony.
The only thing I can do now is be patient and continue my Brain Injury Therapy/Rehabilitation Sessions. I have this time also to draw closer to God. I’ve also been asked “Why did this happen to you though if God loves you?” Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” God did not create pain and suffering, but here it clearly tells you “that in, ALL THINGS, God works for the good. This is telling me no matter what bad has happened, God is going to allow GOOD to EMERGE from the BAD!
Calling on my life, “Isaiah 55:11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.’
He spoke the words out over your life with His very mouth. the results of what He proclaims will not return back empty to Him. It “WILL” accomplish what He desires and achieves the purpose for which He sent it!
You can fight it, you can hide from it and you can even Run from it. It may not be tomorrow, next month or next year. The reality of it is, You’ll never get away with any of these 3 things with God. It’s going to happen eventually. To elaborate on a personal level. I believe God is in control of everything, nothing happens without His say so. I Believe he allowed this Traumatic Brain Injury to happen to me only to say, “STOP RUNNING, COME BACK TO ME AND GET BACK TO YOUR CALLING!”
This is my belief, this is how I feel. You can agree or disagree and that’s okay! We are all entitled to our own beliefs and opinions.
NEVER GIVE UP HOPE AND REMEMBER YOU MATTER!