This post is going to start off in the depressed mood I'm coming out of. I cant help it or control it sometimes, but stay with me its going to finish good! Some days I feel like I'm an inmate, in a cell, in a prison of my mind. A Ditch, a slump, a bad … Continue reading Dark Days WILL Lead to Soaring Days!
For the past week I've been dealing with an elevated "resting heart rate" of 110 to 130+ beats per minute. This was due to an increase in meds. My Neuro- Psychiatrist advised me to go to the Emergency Room ASAP if any pain or discomfort developed in my chest because of it. Well, this past … Continue reading CardioVascular Center, Elevated Heart Rate, Exhaustion, but I’m still standing!
Let me just be real for this post! I had a good scare the other day. First let me explain why my wife and two oldest boys are doing what I should be doing around the house. Due to my limitations and issues, I'm not allowed to operate a vehicle or any type of machinery. … Continue reading Oh yeah, hey Satan by the way, You’re not going to Win!!!
To many diagnoses to explain, and you're so tired of the pain. To many Doctor visits to recall, here take this pill it will help it all. To … Continue reading To Many for God???
Today I was discharged from my Brain Rehabilitation Service and Therapy Facility. I will still continue to see one therapist there for a while. This is due to a lifelong issue I have now. To have the emotions of excitement and that of somber at the same time is confusing and hard to describe. I've … Continue reading A Chapter To A Never Ending Book…
I believe I stated this phrase in a prior blog. "Looking at pre-injury TBI videos and pics are my biggest enemy!" I'm soon to be discharged from my therapy/brain rehabilitation center next Monday the 13th. So a question one of my therapist asked me today, at the beginning of one of my sessions was "you've … Continue reading To gym or not to gym?!?!?
Your injury and diagnoses do not define who you are. What the Doctors tell you does not determine your final outcome. Your struggles let you know you're alive. Your day to day life may be different now, but acceptance of your abilities and limitations are key to your progress. After my TBI, my family and … Continue reading Straighten your Crown King/Queen
Trying to reflect back to the beginning stages of my TBI is very difficult. The memory can't be pulled up to the present for me. I remember the initial injury and what happened. The following days, my mind seemed to be a haze, like a fog settled in. The first couple of months of recovery … Continue reading Break Down Your Emotional, Physical and Spiritual Barrier!
Traumatic Brain Injury = TBI TBI = Thankful, Brilliant, Invincible Fatigued=My body gives out faster, but I'll still get it done! Neuro-Fatigued=My mind tires out from working harder, but it's working! Vision Problem= I Hear the truth in people! Headaches = My alone time to reflect and soul search! Dizziness = I get to Sit … Continue reading PERSPECTIVE ON T.B.I. MEANS EVERYTHING
What was your devilish thought the day I was injured, Did you and your demons think you were the winner? Were you there when I was laid out on the hospital bed, were you Hoping you did enough that I'd end up dead? With diagnosed words overheard the joy you must've felt, Especially when the … Continue reading The Devil’s Whispered Words…
I'm so grateful for the things that this injury has opened up in my life. I've met so many wonderful people through support groups and therapist, that otherwise I would've never known existed. It's allowed me to grow closer to my wife and family. It's allowed me to grow closer to God. It's weeded out … Continue reading Gratitude,Humbleness and Affirmation through someone’s Suicidal Thoughts…
You want to stay positive today and feel good. You also want to just sit in a dark empty room in silence and reflect on your life and thoughts. You feel like you've set an insane PACE for yourself to hurry along with your recovery. Maybe you feel you have pushed yourself to have this … Continue reading Slow and Steady Wins the Pace???
The simplest of things that can happen to me and it can open my eyes to make it personal, life relatable issues and deal with my walk with God. I was writing in my journal this evening and my pen gave out of ink. No big deal. Just because I wanted to, I … Continue reading New Pen, but now it’s God’s story to write…
We all have this little thing ingrained in our minds to fix things. You can see it with a child or maybe even remember an incident yourself as a child. Your toy breaks and you try to fix it. If you can't, you take it to one of your parents and say something … Continue reading Because of your TBI, that’s WHY…..
So call it an Injury, Accident or Life Altering event, No matter the title, you're the one who's bent. You wake up feeling tired and alone, with pain so intense you let out a groan. Another horrific day to face the pain, So tired of the pills, to your Doctor you'll explain. Morning is now … Continue reading Hear my Cry…..
Now this is not a post where I'm forcing religion on you. This is just my beliefs and something I feel that has been laid on my heart this evening and wanted to share. So, a quick run down of the story of "Jonah from the Bible" if you're not familiar with it. God had … Continue reading Am I a Modern day Biblical Jonah???
There never seems to be an in between. Wake up and start the day. Which person is it going to be? Look in the mirror and you try to find yourself. You stare deep into the eyes within the reflection of the person looking back at you. Is it the person whose life is filled with … Continue reading Overcast Days…
I'm going to forewarn you now, this is going to be lengthy but I strongly feel needs to be shared. Not just for me but maybe for someone out there right now in their life's struggle..if I'm going through it maybe someone else is and it'll help them as much as it has helped me … Continue reading Mountain sized Obstacles
This isn't something I've made public but here goes....Having a traumatic brain injury with a bleed on my brain has changed my life. I'm not the person I used to be anymore. It's a weird feeling because he's still in there but can't come out. The terrible headaches, the stuttering, not remembering things from days … Continue reading May 28th. The day denial left and reality set in….
This invisible wound and injury are now your enemy. A mighty blow has taken you down but only to one knee. Your strength has diminished. Satan and his demons scoff and say "you are finished." Your hopes and dreams of life are scattered on the ground. You look to your left, your right and down, … Continue reading The Weakest Warrior, No More….
There are no more tears that can fall from your eyes. Each day to be positive or negative, always a surprise. Life has thrown you a challenge to make you stumble and fall. Boldy against the pain and suffering you're now forced to face it all. Now this new world seems a cold and dark … Continue reading The Tearless Eyes
Corn, tomatoes and some squash in the back, just can't be seen. One of my TBI therapist suggested for me to do this to help occupy my mind and focus on individual tasks. I've watched this garden progress and grow. This morning it made me think of how we can look at life from two … Continue reading The HOPE garden
One beautiful rose that stands the grandest out of all the others on the rose bush. Youthful, vibrant, perfect. It's blossomed into the world strong and courageous. Ready to face any storm that may come its way! It stands tall and strong for the smaller roses to admire and be inspired by it, to become … Continue reading The Grandest Rose…
"Homesick" Have you ever been away from home for an extended period of time. Maybe a week long vacation or a quick weekend getaway. The new sights and sounds. The smells, this new place with the excitement with so much to do. At first it's great. Each day is a new day and a new … Continue reading HOMESICK….
It always seems to be Storming outside when I'm having a tough time due to my TBI. It's like God is saying, "hey bud I'm going to let this storm and rain loose on the earth to clean it up and replenish it , you let the storm in you loose. Get it all out … Continue reading Cleansing Storm