The Little Things…

Things that I'd overlook prior to my injury are the things that I now stop and take in. Being at a creek, to not fish, but just watch the water flow. Sit in the shade and watch the clouds float by. Get lost in my thoughts watching the wind blow the leaves of the trees. … Continue reading The Little Things…

Strong Enough…

The safe place that you go to when things fall apart. Are you strong enough to leave it there? The pain from your body when medications don't help. Are you strong enough to push through? When your disability now limits you to certain activities. Are you strong enough to overcome and learn new ways to … Continue reading Strong Enough…

Your Mask Is Showing…

Your smile has began to crack and the hurt is beginning to show through. The facade you've displayed for so long is starting to crumble. The pain and tears wrapped in fear that you've so desperately fought to conquer, are now starting to resurface. The mirror is becoming your enemy again. You look in it … Continue reading Your Mask Is Showing…

The Journey So Far…

The TBI journey over the past few years have been just as tough mentally as they have physically. From having to relearn how to do certain things all over again a specific way, (to still make mistakes ), to struggling with weight due to meds, insomnia, fatigue and lack of motivation. Some days you feel … Continue reading The Journey So Far…

I did???

One of the many issue I struggle with now is, short term memory loss. It's not a matter of being forgetful or something just slipping your mind. It's completely not knowing you did something but you have photos, videos or the ones closest to you retelling you that you, in fact, did something or said … Continue reading I did???

P.U.S.H…..

The days that seem impossible, PUSH The nights that seem endless, PUSH The stress that never leaves, PUSH The pain that never ceases, PUSH The tears that can't be held back, PUSH The task that are confusing, PUSH The memory that is grey, PUSH The events that are missed, PUSH The life that's falling apart, … Continue reading P.U.S.H…..

Little by Little, Day by Day…

Continuing on this TBI Journey is enough to bring the strongest person down. Never did I think I'd take for granted the "normal" everyday activities and "normal" life I used to have... To accomplish a simple task now and truly be humbled and grateful by the accomplishment of doing so, has really made me realize … Continue reading Little by Little, Day by Day…

Always say Thank You…

Okay, so my name was called 32 times tonight by my kids. Out of those 32 times not one" thank you" was said for anything. Now I'm not saying this to insinuate that my children have poor manners. That's not the case, they are all very well mannered. When I first began writing it down … Continue reading Always say Thank You…

Why me Lord?

Why me Lord? This burden is to much to carry. How much longer Lord will you tarry? I know you are with me until the end, But how much more can I bend? Even during my nights of mourning, You reassure me, "Joy comes in the morning!" When I feel lost and everyone's gone, you … Continue reading Why me Lord?

Weather changes and T.B.I. changes

Living in Eastern N.C. my whole life, I've experienced some unusual weather during certain seasons. Take today for example. It is winter time. Today, it was a beautiful, sunny and a warm 80 degrees, with a slight breeze, it's February 7th. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the Mid 70's with similar conditions. Tomorrow night … Continue reading Weather changes and T.B.I. changes

A Mountain or Spec of Dust

Many times, you will have negative things and situations come into your life. You, can only do so much to try and fix the problem with what you have at your disposal and knowledge. I, being guilty of this, tried to fix things dealing with my TBI on my own. After countless failed attempts, I … Continue reading A Mountain or Spec of Dust

The Long Night

The Long night is now upon you, the memories of the day soon to haunt you. Did you do this right, did you do this wrong? What will happen next? These thoughts make the night so long. Hear the distant train rolling through the quiet of the night, think of it's power, can you tackle … Continue reading The Long Night

Sometimes it’s good to hear the “old you” and know they’re still in there.

Going through some old videos I've posted onto Facebook through the years of me singing and came across this. Really hit me hard with everything I have and what I am still going through. Just what I needed to hear though, maybe you as well! https://www.facebook.com/lance.lucas.790/videos/1389433074409489/ Goodnight!

Be slow to Anger…

Everyday life is filled with confusion and struggles of things that can aggravate, frustrate and anger you. This can be said for any person and definitely victims of T.B.I. Prior to my injury I had a care free life. What I mean by this is, things didn't bother me or upset me badly as they … Continue reading Be slow to Anger…

Time to Reflect…

A year ago, I honestly did not see myself making it this far! Now that I am here, I know I just want more of what I consider, "Normal Lance", back! I've had and still struggle with my times of what I call, "Darkness." However, I had and still have great people that are here … Continue reading Time to Reflect…

Which are you: The Soggy Wet Christian or a Fighting with Fire Christian?

Still continuing this long fight with my TBI and ailments that are associated with it. It's been a really rough past 3 weeks for me. I've reached the point where I've felt like throwing in the towel. I came across something that I had written down years past and it really hit me hard Today. … Continue reading Which are you: The Soggy Wet Christian or a Fighting with Fire Christian?

I’m tired of it all but it’s going to be alright…

I don't normally post articles when I'm like this. However, I want people to see the downside of the emotional roller coaster that some people with TBI suffer from. I've had a bad past week and a half. I'm tired of it all. Recap, 15 months Post TBI, Pons-Brain Bleed and Front Temporal Lobe damage. … Continue reading I’m tired of it all but it’s going to be alright…

Looks Can Be Deceiving. Educate Yourself Before Speaking…

One irritating factor that I've come to despise from my Traumatic Brain Injury,(TBI), is hearing, "Wow you look great now" or "You don't look hurt?!?!" These comments are hurtful and are a constant reminder of the issues myself and others struggle with now, due to the TBI. I'm sure there are countless others that have … Continue reading Looks Can Be Deceiving. Educate Yourself Before Speaking…