The Little Things…

Things that I'd overlook prior to my injury are the things that I now stop and take in. Being at a creek, to not fish, but just watch the water flow. Sit in the shade and watch the clouds float by. Get lost in my thoughts watching the wind blow the leaves of the trees. … Continue reading The Little Things…

Strong Enough…

The safe place that you go to when things fall apart. Are you strong enough to leave it there? The pain from your body when medications don't help. Are you strong enough to push through? When your disability now limits you to certain activities. Are you strong enough to overcome and learn new ways to … Continue reading Strong Enough…

Your Mask Is Showing…

Your smile has began to crack and the hurt is beginning to show through. The facade you've displayed for so long is starting to crumble. The pain and tears wrapped in fear that you've so desperately fought to conquer, are now starting to resurface. The mirror is becoming your enemy again. You look in it … Continue reading Your Mask Is Showing…

I did???

One of the many issue I struggle with now is, short term memory loss. It's not a matter of being forgetful or something just slipping your mind. It's completely not knowing you did something but you have photos, videos or the ones closest to you retelling you that you, in fact, did something or said … Continue reading I did???

P.U.S.H…..

The days that seem impossible, PUSH The nights that seem endless, PUSH The stress that never leaves, PUSH The pain that never ceases, PUSH The tears that can't be held back, PUSH The task that are confusing, PUSH The memory that is grey, PUSH The events that are missed, PUSH The life that's falling apart, … Continue reading P.U.S.H…..

Little by Little, Day by Day…

Continuing on this TBI Journey is enough to bring the strongest person down. Never did I think I'd take for granted the "normal" everyday activities and "normal" life I used to have... To accomplish a simple task now and truly be humbled and grateful by the accomplishment of doing so, has really made me realize … Continue reading Little by Little, Day by Day…

Always say Thank You…

Okay, so my name was called 32 times tonight by my kids. Out of those 32 times not one" thank you" was said for anything. Now I'm not saying this to insinuate that my children have poor manners. That's not the case, they are all very well mannered. When I first began writing it down … Continue reading Always say Thank You…

Why me Lord?

Why me Lord? This burden is to much to carry. How much longer Lord will you tarry? I know you are with me until the end, But how much more can I bend? Even during my nights of mourning, You reassure me, "Joy comes in the morning!" When I feel lost and everyone's gone, you … Continue reading Why me Lord?

Weather changes and T.B.I. changes

Living in Eastern N.C. my whole life, I've experienced some unusual weather during certain seasons. Take today for example. It is winter time. Today, it was a beautiful, sunny and a warm 80 degrees, with a slight breeze, it's February 7th. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the Mid 70's with similar conditions. Tomorrow night … Continue reading Weather changes and T.B.I. changes

A Mountain or Spec of Dust

Many times, you will have negative things and situations come into your life. You, can only do so much to try and fix the problem with what you have at your disposal and knowledge. I, being guilty of this, tried to fix things dealing with my TBI on my own. After countless failed attempts, I … Continue reading A Mountain or Spec of Dust

The Long Night

The Long night is now upon you, the memories of the day soon to haunt you. Did you do this right, did you do this wrong? What will happen next? These thoughts make the night so long. Hear the distant train rolling through the quiet of the night, think of it's power, can you tackle … Continue reading The Long Night

Sometimes it’s good to hear the “old you” and know they’re still in there.

Going through some old videos I've posted onto Facebook through the years of me singing and came across this. Really hit me hard with everything I have and what I am still going through. Just what I needed to hear though, maybe you as well! https://www.facebook.com/lance.lucas.790/videos/1389433074409489/ Goodnight!

Be slow to Anger…

Everyday life is filled with confusion and struggles of things that can aggravate, frustrate and anger you. This can be said for any person and definitely victims of T.B.I. Prior to my injury I had a care free life. What I mean by this is, things didn't bother me or upset me badly as they … Continue reading Be slow to Anger…

Time to Reflect…

A year ago, I honestly did not see myself making it this far! Now that I am here, I know I just want more of what I consider, "Normal Lance", back! I've had and still struggle with my times of what I call, "Darkness." However, I had and still have great people that are here … Continue reading Time to Reflect…

Which are you: The Soggy Wet Christian or a Fighting with Fire Christian?

Still continuing this long fight with my TBI and ailments that are associated with it. It's been a really rough past 3 weeks for me. I've reached the point where I've felt like throwing in the towel. I came across something that I had written down years past and it really hit me hard Today. … Continue reading Which are you: The Soggy Wet Christian or a Fighting with Fire Christian?

I’m tired of it all but it’s going to be alright…

I don't normally post articles when I'm like this. However, I want people to see the downside of the emotional roller coaster that some people with TBI suffer from. I've had a bad past week and a half. I'm tired of it all. Recap, 15 months Post TBI, Pons-Brain Bleed and Front Temporal Lobe damage. … Continue reading I’m tired of it all but it’s going to be alright…

Traumatic Brain Injury Seasons will come and the Seasons will go,they don’t last forever!

Seasons come and Seasons go, Memories of your pre-injury life are exactly that. They are but a memory of your old life. Many friends you had, have gone. The few, true loyal friends have now taken their place. Each day is a struggle behind closed doors that family and friends never see. Being in public … Continue reading Traumatic Brain Injury Seasons will come and the Seasons will go,they don’t last forever!

Gain the whole world to lose your soul?!?

"It's better to be wrong in the "world's eye" and be safe in God to further yourself with your walk with Him and to further His Kingdom!" Have God's perspective on your life! See if it is clean and pure and of God! If it's not, it is of the Devil and it WILL DESTROY … Continue reading Gain the whole world to lose your soul?!?

Passion For a Greater Love…

Passion- a strong and barely controllable emotion!! So someone recently asked me, why am I trying to be all religious now? I told them, I grew up in church. I kind of fell out of it. I was very involved in the music ministry and other ministries. Then I said," you know, everything I've been … Continue reading Passion For a Greater Love…

There’s still an Eternal Storm coming. Be Prepared!

Living in Eastern N.C. my whole life, I've been through my fair share of catastrophic and non catastrophic hurricanes. This most recent hurricane, Florence, that has hit the Carolinas was catastrophic of Biblical proportions. The damage and flooding it caused will go down on the record books. The loss of life and everything of material … Continue reading There’s still an Eternal Storm coming. Be Prepared!

Apologies

I apologize for not having published anything lately... We live in a area that is prone to flooding from torrential rain systems...hurricane matthew nearly flooded my home..hurricane Florence will probably get it. We've been busy and doing as much as possible prepping ourselves and home for this major hurricane. When things calm down, I'll be … Continue reading Apologies

There’s always Hope…

When you're kissed by morning's first light, wake up ready to begin you're fight. Another night you've made it through, Now to conquer this day is the goal for you. Be courageous, for there's no place for fear, NEVER feel defeated, your victory is so near. Set goals and task that you know you can … Continue reading There’s always Hope…

Spared for a Purpose

So it seems life wants you to give up, Take a Deep breath, say this is not enough. Disheartening to hear It's going to take time, Weeks, Months, Years, but you'll be fine. Your brain needs time to heal, Then your Dr. gives you a new pill. Their motives are honest and true, To help … Continue reading Spared for a Purpose

There for You…

This is a song I wrote many, many years ago. The lyrics are more powerful to me now because I'm living them and it has such a deep, personal and emotional meaning to me now...I HOPE it lifts and encourages you.. I'll post the video I recorded years back at the end. I want you … Continue reading There for You…

Great are you Lord…

https://youtu.be/PlOzrffA5Eo During the early stages of my TBI recovery, I came to the harsh realization that I couldn't play my guitar and sing together. My brain simply wouldn't let me do the two task at the same time. It's taken a lot of time, praying and hard work to be able to play and sing … Continue reading Great are you Lord…

Playing my Guitar but You could hear a pin drop.

Playing music and singing is one of my "Go To" coping techniques for when I'm struggling with many issues I now face. Be it Physical pain, Emotional pain or Medical issues. When I know it's coming on, I'll grab my guitar in a heartbeat. It's relaxing to me. It's beneficial for me. It's just overall … Continue reading Playing my Guitar but You could hear a pin drop.

Dark Days WILL Lead to Soaring Days!

This post is going to start off in the depressed mood I'm coming out of. I cant help it or control it sometimes, but stay with me its going to finish good! Some days I feel like I'm an inmate, in a cell, in a prison of my mind. A Ditch, a slump, a bad … Continue reading Dark Days WILL Lead to Soaring Days!

CardioVascular Center, Elevated Heart Rate, Exhaustion, but I’m still standing!

For the past week I've been dealing with an elevated "resting heart rate" of 110 to 130+ beats per minute. This was due to an increase in meds. My Neuro- Psychiatrist advised me to go to the Emergency Room ASAP if any pain or discomfort developed in my chest because of it. Well, this past … Continue reading CardioVascular Center, Elevated Heart Rate, Exhaustion, but I’m still standing!

Oh yeah, hey Satan by the way, You’re not going to Win!!!

Let me just be real for this post! I had a good scare the other day. First let me explain why my wife and two oldest boys are doing what I should be doing around the house. Due to my limitations and issues, I'm not allowed to operate a vehicle or any type of machinery. … Continue reading Oh yeah, hey Satan by the way, You’re not going to Win!!!

To Many for God???

To many diagnoses to explain,                               and you're so tired of the pain. To many Doctor visits to recall,                         here take this pill it will help it all. To … Continue reading To Many for God???